Love Poems

Tears and Pen Marks

I yearn to touch your face
yet my hands tremble
haunted by the past
enveloped in burns

These hands, once beautiful
now used and shattered
fear in their frailness
to wipe your tears away

They are useless
surging with agony
longing to have you
afraid to know you

The pain is still real
I cannot bring it back
the curse would return
along with my deepest desires

My heart believes
trusts you to heal me
but these hands know deception
and refuse to go on

I struggle in your eyes
the hurt is so genuine
but hands cover the truth
in order to survive

I wish you would stop playing with my heart.
Can't you understand how much this hurts?
It makes me want to scream 'til I can no more
Or at least crawl in a hole and never be found again.

I wish I could change you.
Why do you have to be this way?
I thought I knew you
now I know I don't.

I wish I wasn't so naive.
It's all slowly killing me.
I hope you're happy with yourself.
I know I'm not comfortable in my own skin.

But most of all
I wish I could get through this.
I hate myself
especially because I care about you.

I'm sitting here, waiting
for what, I don't know
because I should have said something
I can't get myself to go.

Do I even want to risk it?
You'd laugh and walk away
I'm just a silly little girl
and my heart is not for play.

Yet you keep luring
and leading me on
only to find out later
you are really gone.

I'm hating you for this
yet it's you that I ache for
I wish you'd speak the truth
Don't make me guess anymore.

will you comfort me?

Or will I sit alone,

no one hearing my plee?

I'm surrounded by the darkness,

and enveloped in the black.

There's no one around me,

no one's got my back.

no one hears my cry.

I wish you were here with me,

cuz without you I may die.

I just need someone to love me

someone to hold me tight

who will be my only shelter

and tell me 'It's all right.'

Someone whose loving arms

open only just for me

and in their caring eyes

I'm the only one they see.

as a reminder of thee

and how I'm unworthy.

all the nights I spent

how much I rehearsed

how much I felt cursed

while staring at you

but nothing came out

except mush words and goo.

the embarassment dealt

words of such passion

in this kind of fashion.

all the words locked away

what I'm trying to say...

You are all I've ever wanted

you're in my every dream

I think I'm falling for you

as crazy as it seems.

your smile and your eyes

plus the way you look at me

you're the best of all guys.

A witty sense of humor

and every bit of charm

makes my heart go crazy

like setting off an alarm.

I just want you to know

you've taken hold of me

How am I supposed to tell you?

How will I even start?

Are you even going to listen?

Or walk away and break my heart?

You probably cannot hear it

But my heart, its pounding hard

Dont get any closer!, it says,

Just back away, you retard!

Try as I might,

My feet dont turn around,

And Im getting ever closer

Yet staring at the ground.

I dont have enough courage

To look you in the eyes

Because I know if I do

I might have to say my good-byes.

Why do I even attempt it

I already know what your reaction will be

But my mind keeps on pushing

So I can get it out of me.

Now I take a deep breath

Put on my brightest grin

Hope for the best

And pour my soul out to you, from within.

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This blank page stares back at me
how many were thrown away?
Of this I'm not too sure
there have been tons and tons today.
All I do is sit and think
finding words to write
I've tried out quite a few
but they just don't come out right.
How do I put in words
just how you make me feel?
The way you make me come alive?
The way I feel so real?
I don't know how you've done it
you've freed me from my chains
my spirit can fly freely
now I know no pain.
Just hearing your sweet name
puts a smile on my face
I'm filled with such a warmth
(God's very own embrace?)
I'm sure there's no one else like you
(at least none I've found out)
but I'm pretty sure I'm right
you're an angel, there's no doubt.